February

I haven't written anything since last month, as I have been pretty busy with "real life" issues (understand: finding a part-time job to help me support my studies). Also, things seem to have come to a stand still PhD-wise. While my supervisors and I are planning a pilot experiment, something short, just to explore our possibilities concerning eye movements and fractal geometry in landscape, my brain keeps working backward and thinking that this isn't right. That this isn't what I am here for, this isn't what I wanted to do, and this isn't going to teach me anything interesting.
I am thus torn between those two conflicting forces, one pushing me forward, the other one holding me back. Of course it would be much easier if only I could define what it is exactly that I wanted. Or perhaps it doesn't matter and I should just go on now.
In any case, I try to keep on digging.